There is a peculiar magic in beginnings, isn’t there? Like the
first light of dawn breaking over the moors of Yorkshire, or the hesitant trickle
of a stream carving its path through ancient stone. Beginnings are rarely
grand, rarely perfect. They are raw, unpolished, and often unremarkable.
Yet, they hold within them the seeds of everything that is to come.
I think of the great oak, which once was but an acorn, buried
in the earth, unassuming and fragile. It did not wait for the perfect conditions
to grow; it simply began. It stretched its roots into the soil, however rocky,
and reached for the sky, however distant. And over time, it became a monument
to patience, resilience, and the quiet power of starting.
I am reminded of the words of T.S. Eliot, who wrote, “For last
year’s words belong to last year’s language, and next year’s words await another
voice.” How often have I waited for that “another voice,” that future version
of myself who would be wiser, more skilled, more ready? But the truth
is, the voice I have now is the only one that matters. It is the only one that can
speak today, in this moment, with the tools and knowledge I possess.
The podcast I’ve been planning, the video script, the channel,
the writing—these are not tasks for some distant, idealised future. They are
for now. They are for the me who sits here, pen in hand, heart full of both
doubt and determination. I think of the great explorers—Columbus, Magellan, Shackleton—who
set sail not because they knew the way, but because they trusted the journey.
They began with what they had: a ship, a map, a dream. And though their paths
were fraught with storms and uncertainty, they moved forward.
I think, too, of the Japanese concept of ‘wabi-sabi’—the beauty
of imperfection, the grace in transience. A cracked teacup, mended with gold,
becomes more precious for its flaws. So too, my first attempts at master will
be flawed, perhaps even broken in places. But they will be mine, and they will
be the foundation upon which I build.
The research I’ve been avoiding, the scattered notes, the portfolio,
the applications—these are not burdens. They are opportunities. They are the
raw materials of my becoming. Like the potter at the wheel, I must begin with
the clay I have, shaping it with my hands, trusting that the form will emerge
in time.
I think of the great libraries of Alexandria, repositories of
human knowledge, built one scroll at a time. Each word I write, each task I complete,
is a scroll added to my own library. It does not matter if the ink smudges or
the parchment tears. What matters is that I write.
And so, I begin. Not with fanfare, but with quiet resolve. I
begin with the vocabulary I know, the ideas I have, the time I possess. I begin
with the understanding that some days, I will soar, and others, I will stumble.
But balance, as the ancients taught, is the way of the universe. The tides rise
and fall; the seasons turn; the stars burn and fade. And through it all, life persists.
I will not be anxious for the outcome. I will not fret over how
it will be received, or whether it will meet some arbitrary mark. I will simply
do. I will write the script, create the channel, send the email, read the book.
I will learn the words, practice the craft, build the website. I will start
from where I am, with what I have. For in the end, it is not perfection
that defines us, but the courage to begin. At the very start, a subtle magic
unfolds—a metamorphosis that transforms the commonplace into the sublime, the
mundane into the magnificent.
So today, I take my first step. Imperfect, hesitant, but mine.
And in that step, I find a quiet joy, a flicker of hope, a promise of what is
to come.
Fin.